i never let you go.

On second thought, maybe you don't.

everything's not lost.

i just want to forget for awhile.

you know you are a sinking ship,
on the way down through crashing waves.
and although it's 1 p.m. here, i'm left stranded.
rescue can't help you. because it's one a.m. in paris and you're speaking in tongues.
amour mes amis.
extraordinaire.
and i can't find a care in the world.
the sea jumps in a violent curl.
wrap me up and let you go.

and you miss yourself too. To know that you have never been strong. To know that everything you made yourself believe was an illusion. And illusion that wasn’t even worth the time. That’s what it all comes down to. What is worth my time anymore? Am I worth the time?

and driving it’s rush hour and the cars are on 3rd street.
Pedal faster to the beat.
Your heart thumps along with the heat. And one day I’m going to do that.
To live with the city. Feel insignificant. Feel empty and at peace.
The only way that I can find true happiness is by being invisible.
Right now, my goal in life is to be completely unremarkable.
To remain normal.
Maybe I’ll be able to make something of myself that way.

now what got me was that they are using the world love too much. What is in a 4 letter, on syllable word? And what meaning does it have to you? Teenage “love”. I find it interesting that love and lust are so similar. Interchangeable. The most you can hope for is eternal lust. Because it’s apparent that love doesn’t last forever. At least aim for the desire for another for the rest of your life. Shoot for the stars kiddies.

control freak by copeland.

4 a.m. Just finished putting all of my files on DVD's. I'm beat. Too tired for an actual update. Computer getting fixed. Maybe next week?

french soldier: "i don't want to talk to you no more you empty headed animal food trough wiper. i fart in your general direction! your mother was a hamster and your father smelt of elderberries."

king arthur: "is there someone else up there we can talk to?"

french soldier: "no! now go away or i shall taunt you for a second time!"

king arthur: "now this is your last chance. i've been more than resonable!"

french soldier: "fetcher la vache!"

french soldier 2: "quoi?"

french soldier: "fetcher la vache!"

(then they precede to catapult various farm animals over the wall of the castle)

merry christmas. :)

i'm watching austin powers: goldmember right now and i'm laughing like crazy. i think i needed this.


ps- bought my semi dress this weekend from le chateau (it's not slutty, surprisingly. i usually don't like le chateau.) i love it.

pathetic and sympathetic arent that different anymore.
you change their names and switch the nouns.
use those vocab lessons.
it'll sure take you far.

i've lost my head and it spins on the floor.
stand there, and beg for more.
you've got some nerve son.
cut it and now you've become someone.

paint up those walls.
and your face as well.
we like to hide behind certain things.
but yours doesnt hide you at all.

find some new faces to scribble over
cause mine has been black for days.
you've never been good at hiding feelings.

so if your face is as hard as rock
and you keep it set like ice
i'll write it as a record
and keep up with your pace.

hold on.
be strong.
this fight will become endless soon.